August le Blanc
Fucking stockholm syndrome... When put into the context of the above ( Stalin, Polpot, Hitler), then life is at stake, mine. I will defend it. So in reality , my life is at risk for even learning this stuff, I am threat to the state as it stands. But to slaughter innocents who were born into something they had no choice over before they can make decisions for them selves makes me one of them... (that being said the Jesuits love to recruit children and the origins of the word infantry- infant- child soldiers) Whether I take one life or many, it makes me like them... That is what is causing me a problem. I am not like them. However I have killed a living creature and those memories are not pleasant. My mind is breaking.